Last week I went to see the Movie Aquaman in theatre. I have to admit, I haven’t made time to watch TV or movies in a really long time, which had me feeling like an Amish kid seeing a moving picture for the first time. I was glued to the movie, and I left feeling kind of gratified. Because just as I had hoped, good triumphed over evil. The underdog clinched the victory and the whole movie was tied up in a neat little bow in the end.
It struck me how relieved I was after watching the ending. Then it occurred to me a few days later why it meant so much to me.
Nowadays, the lines between good an evil have become so fuzzy. The world is one giant gray area of differing beliefs and lifestyles.
As someone who still believes in hard lines between right and wrong, I’m often put in a position that I don’t want to be. Making the choice between the easy thing and the right thing.
It has been pretty eye opening moving to the south, in the heart of barrel racing country and seeing the ugly side of the industry in full view.
My endless optimism and love for horses and this sport had me blinded going into it.
But here is the plain truth, a lot of terrible people win. They win championships, titles, buckles, trailers, money.. you name it, they have won it. They get the sponsorships, they get the wealthy investors backing them, they get the whole thing.
I’d be lying if I told you it doesn’t make my blood boil a little. I’m in the underdog category, and I just want to see underdogs win.
But here is the thing. I have spent the last two weeks reeling over what part of this industry I fit into and where God can really use me. And today I read Psalm 37..
“Do not fret because of those who are evil or be envious of those who do wrong; for like the grass they will soon wither, like green plants they will soon die away. Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this:
Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; do not fret when people succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes. Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret—it leads only to evil. For those who are evil will be destroyed, but those who hope in the Lord will inherit the land.”
What struck me most was “take delight in the Lord, and he will GIVE YOU THE DESIRES of your heart.”
I think I have read that verse wrong for years. In my shallow little head I thought, so if I desire a black corvette, then surely the Lord will deliver on that right? Or what about that own son of Dash Ta Fame I have been eyeballing?
What I’m realizing now is that the Lord is putting NEW desires in my heart. Righteous desires, real, fulfilling, godly desires that only come from taking delight in Him.
When that transformation happens, my desires to win a gold buckle or a million dollar check slowly fade away and are replaced with the desire to serve, to be a good steward of the horses in my care, to develop my skills, and to add value to other people’s lives.
When those desires are placed at the forefront of my mind, then success will just be a side effect of walking in faith and chasing the godly desires that Jesus puts in my heart.
So to answer the question of where do I belong in this industry? I belong where I can serve people, develop great horses and add value to horses and owners alike.
So whether good or bad people are winning, in the end it doesn’t matter much. Base your success and fulfillment on Godly desires and every day you will be winning at life.
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